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Sun, Oct. 16th, 2005, 01:02 pm
I've never done this, and so I'll go out on a limb

since I haven't posted anything substantial in like all-fuck-forever.

First I just want to say that samiotic is the best ever. She wanted to be a paleontologist when she was little. ; )

So, like I said, I haven't ever done anything like this and maybe I can make up for my lack of posting by fielding some questions...

ask me anything, and I'll try to answer to the best of my ability.

Sun, Oct. 16th, 2005 10:10 pm (UTC)

Do you have anything that you would call a belief system or a personal moral or ethical code you live your life by? What is it?

Tue, Oct. 18th, 2005 01:10 am (UTC)
holyloki: Moral Experientialism

Well, I was raised Catholic, and I definitely retain some of the framework of belief which I was raised under, however, I have found personal strands to augment/shift that paradigm just slightly.

I still believe in good works and the power of helping others—I believe Christianity has deep roots in bringing together jewish religious thought and eastern religious thought, and yet I struggle constantly over the distinction between the highest good in christianity and the highest good in buddhism: Purest enlightenment (and excuse me if I don't fully understand the depth of the dogmatic thought I am about to discuss) in Tibetan buddhism is the relinquishment of all worldly cares. The Dalai Lama is supposedly at the last step before total enlightenment, in that he still believes he can teach others, and in that, maintains a level of worldly concern. As opposed to Christianity, which finds salvation in sacrifice for others.

I tend to lean toward the idea of enlightenment from within the world, and being able to maintain compassion while retaining an astute sensibility. I tend to call myself a moral experientialist. For me, this means that the highest order of things I am capable of in this lifetime is the pure engagement with and experience of the gift that is this world. In some sense, I believe that the universe/God is ultimately unable to understand itself subjectively, and thus life and the experience which life generates (in all forms, from all types of life) is a sort of organic process in which the cold rule based universe to understand itself, to come to a self knowledge that it cannot gain from the purely logical standpoint from which it manifests itself.

The combination of these things lends itself to the appreciation of all forms of experience, 'good' or 'bad'. The undesirable series of events, which apparently ruined your day, is just as valuable to you and the world as a whole as the bliss generated by something you expected and knew you liked, in fact, perhaps moreso. However, this does not justify wrong action, for I still maintain that personal freedom, within constraints of reason, is still paramount, and that undue license exerterted is essentially a form of treason against society, life, etc. We are not here to control life, but rather to understand, enjoy and appreciate it.

Just the other night I had the pleasure of wearing one of my favorite shirts. It's a note pasted to the back of walkie talkies, baby monitors and other small radio devices. It reads:

Mon, Oct. 17th, 2005 01:32 am (UTC)

what are your favorite foods and drinks?

what is a place you would like to visit (somewhere you've never been)?

Tue, Oct. 18th, 2005 02:24 am (UTC)

what are your favorite foods and drinks?

I like so many things I'm not sure I can really answer this question fully.

I really enjoy foods and dirkns that make me stop wolfing them down. I also enjoy foods and drinks I can wolf down and wallow in afterwards. I'm a meat and potatoes kind of guy. I like my mom's casseroles, fresh salmon, and I really dig the lazy foods like peanut butter on toast. Greasy spoon diners have a golden throne in my heart, but there's always room at my table for sushi, mexican, indian food or the occasional good old fashioned american burger.

I think what I really enjoy, though, is making culinary monstrousities. My favorite creation thus far went as such:

Toasted sourdough, peanut butter, pickle slices, tobasco sauce, fried egg, tillamook cheddar, braunschweiger, lettuce, and peanut butter topped with another slice of sourdough. Brilliant and amazing.

I adore milk in all its manifestations.

what is a place you would like to visit (somewhere you've never been)?

That's a hard one. I don't ever have the feeling that any one place is much different from any other place, especially if the human touch is factored out. I think perhaps I wouldn't mind visiting the bottom of the ocean, the Mariana Trench perhaps, or going to another planet, but these are sort of silly answers. Within reason, I think I might like to visit the Vatican. It saddens me that I will never have the chance to visit and be in the presence of Karol Wojtyla (Pope John Paul II), but I think perhaps I would still like to go. I was adopted on the condition that my parents raise me as a Catholic, and I cannot come up with any better way to cherish my heritage and return blessing upon the source of my existence than to visit the Vatican and observe its splendour. I mourn its extravagance, but I still think a place with such magnetic importance and history is worthy of at least a quick look over with my own ol' peepers.

Tue, Oct. 18th, 2005 02:01 am (UTC)

what did you wanna be when you were little?

Tue, Oct. 18th, 2005 02:09 am (UTC)

A scientist or a priest.

Maybe I've actually managed to find a kind of in between place just where I am right now. Thanks for being supportive Sam, it really means a lot to me, and I had a really great time hanging out by the warmachine with you last night.

It's pretty scary, but it's flippers still make beautiful sound. Now if we could just get it to stop eating up all the little fish and just bounce a beach ball on its nose!

Tue, Oct. 18th, 2005 02:42 am (UTC)

you really mean a lot to me. thanks for being you!