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Tue, Feb. 15th, 2005, 12:10 am
well, go on...

If you and I were alone in a room, right now, what would we be doing?

(I rarely do these, but this one might be fun. Honesty, now, children, is a virtue.)

...next, post this in your LJ, and see what people want to do with you.

Tue, Feb. 15th, 2005 12:51 am (UTC)

playing Super Mario Kart. You know, on the level with all the loops... heh by the way, your 'Post a comment' page uses brown text on a brown background. You might wanna look into that.

Tue, Feb. 15th, 2005 12:56 am (UTC)

Yeah I know. I don't really care.

Tue, Feb. 15th, 2005 12:59 am (UTC)

If we were together in a room right now, we wouldn't be alone.

Tue, Feb. 15th, 2005 01:13 am (UTC)

True. Cheap answer fucko! ; )

Tue, Feb. 15th, 2005 01:02 am (UTC)

Chugging whisky and attempting to hold an insignificant conversation under music that is not only unappropriate for the moment, but WAY too fecking loud.

Tue, Feb. 15th, 2005 01:13 am (UTC)

Dude, I stopped drinking!

Tue, Feb. 15th, 2005 02:43 am (UTC)

Well I stopped smoking, so otherwise we'd be smoking up a storm! Join me in my illusion of happiness. Or, perhaps: I'm chugging whiskey while you don't. I get fucked up drunk while you feel totally disassociaed from the happenings of the night. You go home, maybe feeling, maybe feeling slightly confused. I go home drunk as hell trying to remember what I said that totally embarrased me trying as hard as I can to remember what I said that almost definitely pissed someone the fuck off, and that said person is without a doubt, about to slaughter my in my sleep.

Tue, Feb. 15th, 2005 01:03 am (UTC)

We would be playing bean bag Tic Tac Toe, that is if we still owned it!

Wed, Feb. 16th, 2005 02:41 am (UTC)

Didn't we lose/break the legs, thus rendering it useless?

We could always make another one, surely.

Tue, Feb. 15th, 2005 08:37 am (UTC)

probably talking nervously (and with some fugue) about music or some other form of art.
or maybe spirituality.
or perhaps deciding to go outside and throw firecrackers at stuff.

Wed, Feb. 16th, 2005 02:37 am (UTC)

Perhaps playing music by blowing up firecrackers in different sized jars?

Wed, Feb. 16th, 2005 02:59 am (UTC)


Tue, Feb. 15th, 2005 10:23 am (UTC)

Listening to the Mouse, fingerpainting, chatting, and maybe playing Scrabble.

Wed, Feb. 16th, 2005 02:38 am (UTC)

We never did get to play Scrabble. : (

Tue, Feb. 15th, 2005 01:31 pm (UTC)

we'd be playing walkie talkies and zipping and unzipping my zipper
but in an artsy way, not a dirty way

Wed, Feb. 16th, 2005 02:39 am (UTC)

Word up. Or maybe that's 'noise up'.
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Wed, Feb. 16th, 2005 02:40 am (UTC)

Speaking of which, we still need to plan that and make reservations for equipment in the backpack co-op! Let's ~gasp~ plan ahead!

Tue, Feb. 15th, 2005 05:29 pm (UTC)

making out, duh.

Wed, Feb. 16th, 2005 02:40 am (UTC)

like bandits?

Fri, Feb. 18th, 2005 11:30 am (UTC)

of course!

Tue, Feb. 15th, 2005 09:20 pm (UTC)
gingercowgirl: hmmmm. . .

fighting? or are we at last through with that and the silenced epoch? i think we'd be angry, sad or a mixture of both; sweet and sour. hopefully i wouldn't start drinking but something tells me i'd have arrived drunk. it seems to be my style when there is a vested interest in being real.

i've never been good at being anything less than real but when i'm called on my emotions i melt like a silver tray attempting to make myself a fork. they are useful utensils. you can stab, eat, comb and see through them.

and i, i've always been transparent. the kind of tray that turns into a fork when you least expect it and need a tray. irony. oh the literaturians. they keep writing.

Wed, Feb. 16th, 2005 02:35 am (UTC)
holyloki: Re: hmmmm. . .

Silenced epoch? I emailed you a couple days ago, you know. Is this the response I get? : /

I'm sorry that I've felt the need to eat with my hands for a while.

You can do the drinking for both of us if you wish, I quit with the illusory and shape-shifting liquids.

When you see through something you're seeing nothing of it at all. It's just as useless and superficial as a reflection. I prefer to look inside things. Handbags, boxes, train cars, nations and planets. Galaxies and universes even. Molecules and quarks too.

I don't have anything to fight with you about Kelley, I just want to stop speaking exclusively in riddles. Language is too romantic for me, I'm sorry, and I guess I was sharing too much of mine with you (and you better believe the vast majority of it was coming your way for quite some time).

I'm beginning a pragmatic-ascetic stage, watch out!

Wed, Feb. 16th, 2005 06:09 pm (UTC)
gingercowgirl: i guess it has felt like time has passed

i don't remember getting a response in the last few days. then again, i've been running a fever for over four days now. i'm glad that you are eating with your hands, manifesting things working on stabilizing your dreams/desires.
as for the drinking, i often intoxicate myself to appease social anxiety. although extroverted, i've a very real fear of people. and not to worry, i'd stop it all together, if i knew i'd never leave my house. xo.
likewise, there is no ryhme, riddle or reason for my transparency; i'm just not a vessel of sediment. i live more on a microscopic plane where miniatures are exaggereated into gradiouse things till they are seen to be what they are: dots in a spectrum of lines. i am but a pixel. 10 10 001 10 00010 01

Thu, Feb. 17th, 2005 11:04 am (UTC)
holyloki: Re: i guess it has felt like time has passed

Yeah, I understand the need to drink to appease social anxiety. I'm introverted (although I altered my course with the inclusion of the drink) and I've got the fear too. That was my m.o. as well. But instead I'm chopping up my crutch for firewood, in hopes that perhaps I can build a fire for myself and some close friends to crouch around.

You're always welcome to join us if you need to warm up for a bit, maybe get yourself back on the analog side of things with some nice chemical reactions for warmth instead of a bright white dot. Those white dots aren't even what they seem anyhow, all made up of red and green and blue. Come warm with the crutch burning, you might find it will help you feel alive again, and then you might get on with stabilizing your dreams and desires. It'd do you some good, I think.

Thu, Feb. 17th, 2005 03:17 pm (UTC)
gingercowgirl: Re: i guess it has felt like time has passed

that is the sweetest invitation i've received in quite some time. when i'm ready i'll be sure to come and bring my crutch as firewood. first i need to build up some strength. i'm finally getting over this flu and was well enough to go to the dentist to get my teeth cleaned. it is odd the things i'm fanatical about. the good news, they're white again. xo. i was put on some horrible mouthwash following the extraction of my wisdom teeth and finally had the stains removed. xo. no cavities too.

i really am hoping to hit a productive period here too soon again. my largest problem is deciding whether i should stay or leave. i love idaho. i love this city in some twisted way, i just wish more quality people lived here. i've an opportunity to run another gallery with a friend i greatly respect. i'm thinking about doing it real this time and getting a place of my own. i'm just not sure about spending more years here or going to a city with a museum. the argument in favour of me staying here is that there isn't a real art community where people can gather and that all together we'd have a huge impact. there, on the other hand, isn't a graduate school closer than gonzaga. i'm torn. on one hand i've an opportunity to do something i love while making enough to hopefully afford a house that would be an incredible investment, or i could go and do another thing i love in a more expensive city with a better graduate program and qualify to do something amazing in a museum. the fact that i keep returning here tells me either my roots or here or that i need to uproot and replant. basically, i'm getting tiered of running all the time. i think it is time to plant. regardless, i'm looking for a pot big enough for me, my books, my art studio and kitchen utensils. i think being on my own is going to be the first step. from there, i'll move forward further. i've still a couple of months to decided and in the meantime will greatly consider a good campfire with some crutch building and burning. burning mostly. xo. for lent i decided this year not to give things up but to get things started. that way i'm not disappointed. there is so much i want to do anyhow.

thanks again for the invite and reminding me that white dots are filled with colour. i've been seeing things too much in black and white lately.

Thu, Feb. 17th, 2005 07:34 pm (UTC)
holyloki: Re: i guess it has felt like time has passed

Giving up a negative is absolution. This seems appropriate.

Sat, Feb. 19th, 2005 12:28 am (UTC)
gingercowgirl: Re: i guess it has felt like time has passed

hear hear. i guess sometimes you have to travel a full circle before you can come around again and when you've been moving in a direction without corners for so long it is easy to get lost. i've finally realized that while i thought i was there and thought i was there i was only at the beginning. now, i've a whole lot of running and catching up to do. xo. the spirals of my life are just starting to unfold in the most beautiful pattern . . .