I broke, I lose.
It really hasn't even been that long...6 days. I need to get back to Portland where I always have something to do, or people that are around so I can distract myself. Being at home just has too many cumbersome attatchments to deal with and too little active engagement. I am going to folk life with Carley around 6:30-7, but until then I have to stay here, knowiing everything is not ok, and not just because I miss her.
If anyone else wants to go to the festivities, let me know...call or post.