Mon, Mar. 5th, 2001, 01:48 pm
I don't understand why no one can understand my writing?perrenial artisitic angst
what are they doing wrong?(what am i doing wrong?
)mary had a little lamb, little lamb, little lamb...
i am certain that there is meaning in my words, since some seem to be able to understand, or at least see the aesthetic, but why is it that the rest of the time my words fail to take hold?mary had a little lamb its fleece was white as snow...
could i be as densely packed as that? most of the time i feel like i'm lost, not when i'm writing, but more when i'm not. when i write i feel more specific and intense than any other time...everywhere that mary went, mary went, mary went...
it is certainly daunting to be told that your midn doesn't make coherent sense.everywhere that mary went the lamb was sure to go.
Mon, Mar. 5th, 2001 01:49 pm (UTC)
The solution to a puzzle is obvious in retrospect?
Mon, Mar. 5th, 2001 01:58 pm (UTC)
Is that question mark intended?
Mon, Mar. 5th, 2001 02:05 pm (UTC)
Hmm... what I meant was:
As I understand it, a lot of what you write has a lot of meaning packed into very few words. I'm reminded of that symbol you used to use that had your name in one letter.
So, to you, it's clever. And it really is clever.
But you shouldn't be too frustrated if people don't "get" it... because once you, the author, "get" it, you can't go back and try to see if somebody else would understand it.
Mon, Mar. 5th, 2001 04:38 pm (UTC)
It's true, and as I walked off to class I realized what you meant to a degree. Although what I was intending in my post's accessories was a farce of what I see a lot of modern writing doing. I guess I just get frustrated at my inability to do exactly that, reexamine my pieces from the point of view of others...yet I'm willing to work to make it all clear in both manners, and that's my goal, to reconcile the raw and inviolate and the logical and rationalized. like i said, i'm just frustrated right now, my college might be leaving me in a lurch...and i won't even know for quite a while yet either. : /
working on it.
Mon, Mar. 5th, 2001 02:00 pm (UTC)
It's all that subliminal messaging in your posts. It's messing with people's heads.
*starts humming Mary Had a Little Lamb*
Mon, Mar. 5th, 2001 04:50 pm (UTC)
Of all the times to lose one's voice.. fer chrissakes. I wish I could talk to you right now but I'm tired of trying to whisper.
When Meg and I were revising your poetry paper right before finals last semester, she made reference to the fact that you were a poet. It's true. The words you use are significant, specific, and they take more thought to understand than the typical words people use. A lot of the Reed education is throwing words around with a lot of disregard for what they actually mean. Some words are just used because they sound intelligent, or are used for the commonly held definition (on this campus) which doesn't always match what they really mean. You on the other hand use words which mean specific things to you, and maybe the problem is that your words don't match the accepted definition of words. They're not easy to understand, they're not bite-size. I don't think this is a problem, its just that some people don't want to put in the time to analyze what you're saying, and thus they say your writing is not "coherent".
I'm still happy to edit your papers for you if you want me too, because I think I can bridge the gap between what you want to say and what people want to hear from an outside perspective.
Mon, Mar. 5th, 2001 07:11 pm (UTC)
It's really not just my papers...my poetry gets that response as well...I'm working on it, but to an extent I have to work within the aesthetic I'm trying to achieve. It's tough and I'm not getting any support...somewhere I just want someone who understands and has already gone through the process to help me, I really need a mentor of some sort, a companion to tread with me in my process...
It's just frustrating, and a bit arrogant..but tough, since I understand where my problems are, but I don't have anyone who understands my aesthetic enough to help me clarify without compromising said aesthetic.
Thank you for offering to help me wth my papers...it's just frustrating when the teacher I should be the most concerned with pleasing in the department I should be most concerned with pleasing seems to be the one person who's least able to understand my writing. : /