December 28th, 2000

grandma ryan

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This is the second time I've woken in the middle of the night. Maybe it's a product of my sleep repression. Or maybe I'm waiting for, expecting, wanting something.someone.something. The first thing I thought of when I woke was, What about 3 hours more on my watch? and then Would she be up?

This is crazy.
grandma ryan

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And I am now..
in a place
like a god
like words
further than i could be from far from her
seeing second as first
last as none
all in
welcome nowhere
everywhere i should be
insolent to fate
passionate in silences
only son of the world
true man from true man
begotten not made
one in being with the never
loud in the evenings
given in the mornings