May 31st, 2000

grandma ryan

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boring day. got up and have basically been lonely and online all day. ah well, i really don't have anything to complain about...well, not overall at least : /
grandma ryan

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wow. i'm sick of people- ironically for leaving[in one way or another]. maybe i need my very own dedicated person. oh wait, i keep trying for that, but it doesn't work : (
grandma ryan

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loneliness sucks. the only way to feel better is to go surround yourelf with people you don't know and remind yourself why you don't want to know them.

and on that note i'm, off to denny's in issaquah.
grandma ryan

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just got back from denny's. had a good bite to eat[my usual, a veggie omelette sourdough toast and hash browns(unfortunately denny's doesn't have spinach)] and read the first book of paradise lost. good stuff : ) i can't wait to read more, but i'm thinking bed is good, since like i mailed to danny, being awake as everyone else is going to bed is depressing. it's like being the last one at a party, watching everyone go out the door. it feels like everyone is leaving you. thanks for the support as i was in a bad mood tonight from various sources. it was well felt. : ) it may not have helped at the time, but i feel better now that i've gotten out and am on a better footing with myself.
grandma ryan

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hrm...so i have all the rem cds and almost all the oingo boingo cds i want burned onto single cds mp3ized...now, who will be able to help me with this. transfer issues are a problem, so someone who will have a burner and be able to connect with me over local ethernet my computer directly tpo theirs for transfer speed purposes...anyone feel like helping me out?
grandma ryan

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got a cooler at target that was supposed to be 12.99 or something, even on sale, and it rang up at $9.00 hey, i'm cool with that : ) good purchase, since i need something of the sort for my trip...now just to decide if it's worth the $80 bucks for the DC to AC adapter[for my computer], or the $80 for AAA : / those are a bit more stressful than a stupid cooler decision.
grandma ryan

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hrm. so speaking of stress: my heater core is fixed, the car won't overheat now, and then the transmission starts acting up JUST as we fix the other problem : / what am i going to do??? i am supposed to be leaving in a week and a half! : ( i am reallystarting to get freaked out now. something is really trying to stop me from going..and i don't know what it is, or whether i should heed it as a bad omen, or thwart it as an evil menace. this sucks...nothing is going right the past couple days. plus i'm pulling this jeff thing. i havent slept in about 33 hrs and don't feel like sleeping...like i get this bad feeling like sleeping would be giving in to this whirpool of cess. i don't know. if any of you do please let me know... : (