livejournal seems sparse so i decided to post just for the hell of it. i had a nice long chat with my family tonight. talked to my mom, then reminisced with my dad. then talked to my sister about things and life and tried to impart my wisdom in a loving and no overbearing way[yes i'm arrogant, yes i'm parenting] abd she always seems to respond well and i think that one day she will be the perfect human being and surpass her teacher.[ok, yes, arrogance again] I have been a total slacker today, i need to write my paper for poetry and poetics, but I just haven't felt motivated or able. I don't know what it is, I just can't seem to let myself do the things I know I can and need to do. I always wonder if this is because I feel like I have nothing to prove to myself, and so I don't bother or what. Very odd condition I think.