ok. i'm happy by myself, but i'm lonely too. i don't know how to reconcile this. and i notice myself being too anxious to appropriate a person to fix this problem when i don't know that they are good or right. i wish i were better at discerning girls who are interested in me, at least to start myself back in some sort of dating. i'm tired of being lonely or in a fucked up relationship. anyhow, enough of this goff crap.